Pity Party

I am determined to pity myself. That's why I always declare myself beyond help or redemption, a tragic genius without the determination or the inspiration to put himself to use. It's why I'm constantly diagnosing myself with a plethora of ailments; that and my neverending quest for attention and acceptance. The irony is that in realizing this truth I have found the greatest reason to pity myself- so why am I not satisfied?